Struggling Through Singleness 

I’m just going to start out by saying, my heart is in a weird place right now. It’s stuck somewhere between trying my best to be content waiting on God, and anxiously wanting so many things to happen at once. Lately, I’ve really been struggling with my season of singleness. I mean, to be quite honest, it’s not even a season. I’ve been single my entire life. I never did the whole “teenage dating scene.” I had my share of crushes in high school, but none of them ever went past the point of me liking a guy, and him not even knowing I existed. So, to say that my heart is getting to be a little impatient, is kind of an understatement.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m all for waiting on God and trusting in His timing, but sometimes I wish I could give Him a little nudge and get the ball rolling a little faster. The thing that makes waiting even harder, is thinking that you know who He has set aside for you. When you let your head and your heart get comfortable with the idea of spending the rest of your life with someone, and it just doesn’t go the way you want it to, it tends to throw you into a funk. As difficult as it may be, that’s when you have to remind yourself that God has His absolute best planned for you, and you just need to stay out of it and let Him work.

I guess the thing is, I’m almost twenty five years old. I have baby fever like crazy, and I’m beyond ready to find a sweet, man of God to marry and settle down with. I want nothing more in life than to be a wife and a Mom. I want someone to love unconditionally that I can spend the rest of my life with. Someone who is closer to God than he is to me, someone to help me raise our kids to love the Lord with their whole hearts. I’m just ready. I’ll keep on praying, hoping, and waiting until that man comes along, because I know that God’s plans are far better than anything I could ever imagine. Even when its a struggle, we need to learn to hang in there and wait on God.

 

 

 

 

Waiting for my Valentine 

To my Valentine,

I know you’re out there somewhere, and I like to think that you’re closer than I realize. Everyday I pray that you’re preparing your heart for me, as I am for you. The Lord is using this season of singleness to build us up and strengthen us in Him, so that as we do life together, we’re constantly encouraging each other and drawing the other closer to Him. I want you to love God more than you love me. I pray that we both learn from His love, and can find new ways to love each other through Him.

I’m giddy with excitement for the journeys He’s going to send us on, the people we’ll meet, and I can’t wait to see how He uses us for His Kingdom. When I find it hard to be patient, I just thunk about those things, and it makes the wait easier. I pray that we’re a power couple, on fire for Christ, being a blessing to those around us. I’m positive that doing life with you will be so beyond worth the wait, and I hope that you feel the same way.

They say that good things come to those who wait. Well, I’m here to tell you that I will wait for as long as it takes for God to decide when the timing is right. Waiting and praying and preparing my heart for you.

If you’re reading this, Happy Valentine’s Day, love.

Forever Yours,

Mandi

 

To My Lovely

  
  Hello love! 

  It’s been a long while since I wrote last, and you’ve been on my heart more now than ever! You’ve been into prayers constantly. I feel like you’re closer than you’ve ever been, and it’s honestly making me crazy to not be with you. I want to know who you are, I want to have you by my side. I want to overwhelm you with my love, to start doing life with you, to love Jesus together. 

  My heart is so ready for you! I sure do hope the Lord thinks that we’re ready for each other soon, too. I hope you’re praying for me as well. Believe me, my anxious heart needs it! Ha! I can’t wait to see what our future holds, but I know that it will be worth the wait! So, hang in there with me, and sooner or later we’ll be together for good. I already love you with all of my heart, dear! 

All of my love,

  Your Future Lovely 😘

Love Enough

  

When my heart gets tired of waiting,

I feel Your gentle touch

as You tenderly remind me

to stop worrying so much

 
You know the plans You have for me,

the man You’ve set aside

Your timing is always perfect

Your ways, much better than mine

 
Although I get impatient,

I may plead, and beg, and cry,

I know You know what’s best for me, 

and only Your Love can truly satisfy.

 
~Amanda N. Sams
July 5, 2015 

“Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, 

that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days.”

~Psalm 90:14 (NIV)

He Answers

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I waited and prayed,
trusted and praised,
knowing that Your plans are best

As others lost hope,
I held tight to my rope,
I knew I would soon hear Your yes

You answered my prayers,
with enough blessing to share,
I’m thankful beyond all words

I’ll praise Your name always,
in the good and the bad days,
because I love You so much it hurts.

~Amanda N. Sams
February 9, 2014

“Waiting in Motion”

Waiting in Motion

I think we can all agree that waiting is hard to do, especially when you know that at the end of the waiting period is something exciting! There are many places in Scripture that instruct us to wait on God, be patient and He’ll give us all that we deserve and the greatest desires of our hearts.

“My soul is quiet and waits for God alone. My hope comes from Him.”

~Psalm 62:5 (NLV)

“I wait for the Lord. My soul waits and I hope in His Word. My soul waits for the Lord more than one who watches for the morning; yes, more than one who watches for the morning.”

~Psalm 130:5-6 (NLV)

“But as for me, I will watch for the Lord. I will wait for the God Who saves me. My God will hear me.”

~Micah 7:7 (NLV)

… and those are just a few of those “wait on God” references!

The one that is sticking with me though, is this one. It doesn’t specifically tell us to “wait,” but instead to “trust” and “delight” in the Lord. The Message translation even tells us to “Get insurance with God.”

“Trust in the Lord, and do good;
Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness.
 Delight yourself also in the Lord,
And He shall give you the desires of your heart.”

~Psalm 37:3-4 (NKJV)

Three things come to mind that I want to touch on in this post. A couple of which Sammy Adebiyi brought up in the sermons I listened to last night. “The Bachelor and the Bachelorette Part 1: The Weight of the Wait” and “The Bachelor and the Bachelorette Part 2: What is Love?” (They can be found here: http://sammyadebiyi.com/audio-messages)

1) Waiting in motion-

“Trust in the Lord, and do good…” The Lord doesn’t want us to sit around and do nothing as we wait for Him to move in our lives. He wants us to be active as we wait. Get involved, volunteer, make connections with others. Sitting around in your pajamas, eating oreos and watching Netflix isn’t the best way to find the person you’re meant to spend the rest of your life with! (I know the context of this Scripture has a much deeper meaning, but we can apply it to this too.)

2) Even Adam had to wait! (He also did so actively.)

Genesis 2:15-22- (NIV)

15 The Lord God took the man and put him in the Garden of Eden to work it and take care of it. 16 And the Lord God commanded the man, “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; 17 but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die.”

18 The Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.”

19 Now the Lord God had formed out of the ground all the wild animals and all the birds in the sky. He brought them to the man to see what he would name them; and whatever the man called each living creature, that was its name. 20 So the man gave names to all the livestock, the birds in the sky and all the wild animals.

But for Adam[a] no suitable helper was found. 21 So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, He took one of the man’s ribs[b]and then closed up the place with flesh. 22 Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib[c] He had taken out of the man, and He brought her to the man.”

Adam had to keep busy while he waited for a helper. When the Lord realized that Adam hadn’t found one suitable from the animals, He put Adam to sleep and created Eve. More waiting! From the beginning of the human race, we’ve had to wait on God to put the right person in our lives. It may not be easy, but…

3) The wait is worth it!

One day, you’ll find someone who loves Jesus tons more than they love you, someone who will lift you up to God and support you in all of your life’s adventures. You’ll bring each other closer to Christ, love on His people, and make a difference in the lives of others. All because you waited on God to put the right person in your life! Wouldn’t it be so much better if when that right person comes into your life, it won’t be at a point when you’ve dated a ton of different people? Had your heart broken and repaired time and time again? Save yourself and your love, and sacrifices for the person God has saved for you!

“Take delight in the Lord,
and He will give you your heart’s desires…”

My Friend Lazarus

IMGP6506-2  I’m at a point in my life where I’m kinda stuck in a rut, a vicious cycle. I don’t have a job, I’m not going to school, and my driver’s license expired because I/we can’t afford to insure me at this time. In order to get to a job, you have to have a car, which requires insurance, and THAT requires an income. Like I said, stuck in a rut. I’ve put in tons of job apps and nothing has become of any of them.

What does this all have to do with Lazarus you ask? Well, last night while I was lying in bed I had a revelation. Jesus used Lazarus’ death to show the glory of God. Despite the doubts of those around Him, He had no problem raising Lazarus from the dead. All it took was a simple “Lazarus, come forth,” and out he came wrapped in grave clothes.

I, like Lazarus, am at a “dead” period in my life. Before Jesus rose Lazarus Martha said to Him “Lord, by this time there is a stench, for he has been dead four days!” I feel like potential  employers are the “Martha” in the situation and they have doubts because I have little job experience and they’re afraid if they hire me I might “stink” at my job. (Haha… see what I did there?) I’m just waiting for Jesus to swoop in and say “Did I not say to you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God?” Or maybe it would be something like “Did I not say to you that if you would give her a chance, you would see that she won’t let you down?” I know that if I continue to wait patiently, there’s a job out there that’s perfect for me and when that time comes Jesus will let me know that it’s the one. “Mandi, come forth.” Maybe God is using my life, and my waiting patiently for His glory, just like He did with the death of Lazarus.

I thank everyone who has been praying for me and my employment status, I really appreciate it. There’s something out there for me, I just know it! Until them, “my soul will wait on the Lord.”