I’m just going to start out by saying, my heart is in a weird place right now. It’s stuck somewhere between trying my best to be content waiting on God, and anxiously wanting so many things to happen at once. Lately, I’ve really been struggling with my season of singleness. I mean, to be quite honest, it’s not even a season. I’ve been single my entire life. I never did the whole “teenage dating scene.” I had my share of crushes in high school, but none of them ever went past the point of me liking a guy, and him not even knowing I existed. So, to say that my heart is getting to be a little impatient, is kind of an understatement.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m all for waiting on God and trusting in His timing, but sometimes I wish I could give Him a little nudge and get the ball rolling a little faster. The thing that makes waiting even harder, is thinking that you know who He has set aside for you. When you let your head and your heart get comfortable with the idea of spending the rest of your life with someone, and it just doesn’t go the way you want it to, it tends to throw you into a funk. As difficult as it may be, that’s when you have to remind yourself that God has His absolute best planned for you, and you just need to stay out of it and let Him work.
I guess the thing is, I’m almost twenty five years old. I have baby fever like crazy, and I’m beyond ready to find a sweet, man of God to marry and settle down with. I want nothing more in life than to be a wife and a Mom. I want someone to love unconditionally that I can spend the rest of my life with. Someone who is closer to God than he is to me, someone to help me raise our kids to love the Lord with their whole hearts. I’m just ready. I’ll keep on praying, hoping, and waiting until that man comes along, because I know that God’s plans are far better than anything I could ever imagine. Even when its a struggle, we need to learn to hang in there and wait on God.
To my Valentine,
I know you’re out there somewhere, and I like to think that you’re closer than I realize. Everyday I pray that you’re preparing your heart for me, as I am for you. The Lord is using this season of singleness to build us up and strengthen us in Him, so that as we do life together, we’re constantly encouraging each other and drawing the other closer to Him. I want you to love God more than you love me. I pray that we both learn from His love, and can find new ways to love each other through Him.
I’m giddy with excitement for the journeys He’s going to send us on, the people we’ll meet, and I can’t wait to see how He uses us for His Kingdom. When I find it hard to be patient, I just thunk about those things, and it makes the wait easier. I pray that we’re a power couple, on fire for Christ, being a blessing to those around us. I’m positive that doing life with you will be so beyond worth the wait, and I hope that you feel the same way.
They say that good things come to those who wait. Well, I’m here to tell you that I will wait for as long as it takes for God to decide when the timing is right. Waiting and praying and preparing my heart for you.
If you’re reading this, Happy Valentine’s Day, love.
When my heart is feeling anxious,
and my hope begins to fade
I look to You for guidance,
I hit my knees and pray
I know that my desires,
may not be what You have planned,
so I’ll trust in You completely
and cling to Your saving hand.
~Amanda N. Sams
November 27, 2015
It’s been a long while since I wrote last, and you’ve been on my heart more now than ever! You’ve been into prayers constantly. I feel like you’re closer than you’ve ever been, and it’s honestly making me crazy to not be with you. I want to know who you are, I want to have you by my side. I want to overwhelm you with my love, to start doing life with you, to love Jesus together.
My heart is so ready for you! I sure do hope the Lord thinks that we’re ready for each other soon, too. I hope you’re praying for me as well. Believe me, my anxious heart needs it! Ha! I can’t wait to see what our future holds, but I know that it will be worth the wait! So, hang in there with me, and sooner or later we’ll be together for good. I already love you with all of my heart, dear!
All of my love,
Your Future Lovely 😘
When my heart gets tired of waiting,
I feel Your gentle touch
as You tenderly remind me
to stop worrying so much
You know the plans You have for me,
the man You’ve set aside
Your timing is always perfect
Your ways, much better than mine
Although I get impatient,
I may plead, and beg, and cry,
I know You know what’s best for me,
and only Your Love can truly satisfy.
~Amanda N. Sams
July 5, 2015
“Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love,
that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days.”
~Psalm 90:14 (NIV)
It’s me again, your future wife. I just wanted you to know that I’m praying for you like crazy. My heart aches to meet you like it never has before. I hope this means that the time is getting closer. I seriously can’t stop thinking about you, who you might be, the precious time we’ll spend together, the laughs we’ll have and the love we’ll share. I know they’ll be some tears too, because nothing is perfect, but we’ll always communicate and work things out.
I can’t wait to start our day with devotions and prayer, and of course some coffee too! I’m definitely looking forward to where the Lord is going to lead us and the adventures He’ll send us on along the way. I know that, because we have God at the center, our marriage will be rock solid and filled with love. I pray that you too, are using your season of singleness to pray and prepare your heart for me. I’m bursting with excitement to see what the future holds! Until the moment that the Lord finally decides it’s time for us to meet, I’ll continue praying for you, preparing my heart, and drawing closer to Him.
Until next time, lots of love!
Your Future Love ❤
More than enough
His love for me
He holds me close
Welcomes me back when I flee
He cleansed my soul
It’s white like snow
His grace is unending
Like a fountain it flows
On the Cross
He bled and died
He gave His life
In exchange for mine
A glorious Savior
His perfect love
One day I’ll join Him
In Heaven above
~Amanda N. Sams
February 15, 2015